well, my friends....you all have loved so very well. beautifully well. well enough that my heart {and brain} can feel every ounce of it and i am so SO thankful for all of your thoughts & prayers. you all blow me away.
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| from the flanegan/dobies clan. love you guys. |
it's been a good week. truly. a seizure free one, too. the last seizure i had was the one provoked at the hospital and i intend to keep it that way :) i'll be perfectly honest when i say, the medication is taking some adjusting to. we initially went way down and then went a smidge back up since i had an episode midweek that felt vaguely similar to one of those deja vu experiences but about 10,000 points down on the aura richter scale (if there is such a thing). the medication makes me lightheaded sometimes and totally kills my appetite so i have no interest in food {a problem i have NEVER had}. the combo of no food and the medication itself is just no good....so i'm learning how to balance all of that mostly by making myself eat even if it means setting a reminder on my phone. the hardest thing for me is the also the hardest to come to grips with.....the baby juggle. thats a broad term for the major multitasking it takes to have 2 kids.....especially 2 kids as close in age as ours. don't get me wrong....it's doable and i manage....they are both fed and clean and as happy as ever. but it's noticeably more difficult in my head than i remember it being a few weeks ago. it slowly improves on a daily basis and with the help of my honey and family i'm hopeful we'll get back to normal sometime soon. for anyone who read last week....you'll appreciate that we went to target this weekend and i actually remember all the details ;) i may not have remembered everything on our list....but getting better nonetheless ;)
the search continues as to WHY this all happened and i'll keep you all posted as to what we learn in the coming weeks. the scariest possibilities have been ruled out so i continue to focus on the positive in that :)
life goes on, thankfully. i'll start "back to work" this week...thankfully from home as i am on a rotation that was originally planned for the end of june...."board review". this is essentially time granted at the end of residency to study for our medicine lisencing boards which i'll sit for in august. i've never been MORE glad that i've been studying for the past 6 months as i am right now. i've already gone through all the material once and now its time for a quicker second pass to try and cement the concepts in. may be a little more difficult given all that's gone on recently but i'm hopeful!
emma and ben haven't skipped a beat in the past week. they, thanks to the swooping in of all the grandparents, continue to grace us all with squeals of delight, hysterical commentary, and constant motion. ben's new favorite activity consists of grabbing my cheeks and trying to eat my face....i think it's his version of a mommy kiss and i am obsessed with it. my favorite comment this week came after i caught emma trying on some new clothes my mom had bought for me....a little retail therapy.....i said to her "oh emma, do you like mommy's new undies?" her reply....with her hand on her hip....."ACtually mommy, these are MY undies". i believe it was shakespeare who said "and though she be but little, she is fierce." clearly he was talking about my daughter. <3
hope everyone is enjoying a beautiful {albeit HOT} seis de mayo :) again....thank you THANK you all. you are an amazing community and my little family and i are so honored and graced to call you friends.
now....i'm in need of some rest and family snuggles on this perfect afternoon. this doctors' orders.
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